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Monday, January 7, 2008

Getting over myself...

In an attempt to get over myself... and my stupidity of deleting 86 pictures into oblivion, I will try and blog and be grateful for the memories, even though I don't have pics to share and remind me of them.
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My husband wasn't phased at all, and his supporting comments were "at least you didn't pay for the film and ruin the pictures too, good thing it is digital". I am still trying to figure that out... I guess I didn't spend $4.00 on film, that's the good news. Hmmmmmm! Yeah, they are not usually much help in this area, I know better than to expect anything different. But it did help that he didn't yell and get mad at me and cry too! He is always really good about that end of the support team.
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So when I picked up my teenager from the airport, the plane was 45min late... and while I had contacts near computers I could call and check on it from my cell phone without going inside the airport, we couldn't figure out what exactly made him late, or how late he would be. (this would be where I inserted pictures of the runway of all the planes landing and taking off... it was really cool). So by the time I actually got him on his cell phone, I was a tiny bit anxious. One thing about teenagers is they have their own agenda of anxiety... and it is certainly not reaching their parents on the cell phone!
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So that was our first conversation... while I am paying for the cell phone, it will be on at every available opportunity, and when someone is waiting for you... CALL THEM, BEFORE THEY GET WORRIED!
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The next conversation was about the great looking new duds he was wearing home from Seattle. He loves doing his Christmas clothes shopping there! I am eternally grateful to my Mom and Sister for taking him... because while my Mother equates him to being just as particular as I was at that age, I am certain he is much much more... I call it "hard to please"! (he gets that from his Dad btw)
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Taylor (the new black lab puppy) is growing so fast. 2J's couldn't believe how big she had gotten when he came home (more cute pictures would have been here).
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It was fun to drive home and hear about all his experiences on vacation. He had a great trip, and lots of fun, quality time and game playing with my family. I was even a little more comfortable with him behind the wheel on the freeway driving home.
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As soon as he arrived home, he immediately began unpacking and re-packing for an overnight abominable snowman camp-out... and before I knew it, he was off again! This time out into the freezing cold, with a storm moving in, in the dark, without a tent. I was assured they would bring him home safely... but I tell you I did allot of praying while he was gone this time.
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So the job he took on to take care of the neighbors dog while they were out of town, became my job (I intend on collecting my share of the earnings too). Shiro (Shiro means white in Japanese)is the cutest White Carin terrier. (more cute pictures would have been here). He did really good while his family was away, only got sick on the floor once and only went without eating any food for 2 days... he began eating again the night before they came home. He seemed to trust me being there with him, but gave me "the look" at times when I would go outside to watch him potty. They assured me he could not get under any fences, but nothing was going to happen to him on my watch, so I just went out with him to be sure... it appeared he wasn't used to company out there, but he got over it easy enough.
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2J's made it home safe and sound, everything he owned was soaking wet, but telling the sledding stories of his life! I have learned this is usually how snow camp outs go... I worry endlessly about death, injuries, lost kids, and they come home having had the time of their lives.
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Sunday, we had the opportunity to hear from an Area Authority from the Quorum of the 70 in our church. It is a fairly rare occasion when they might come visit, but it certainly made for a wonderful addition to our service. Then having a calling in the Stake Youth Program, I was able to go listen to him speak to the 16,17,18 year olds in another Ward too... and since it had been snowing, I had to bring my husband along to drive me, so he stayed for this class and take advantage of hearing what this man would have some of the youth in our Stake hear. We knew it would be valuable and very worthwhile, but we would have no idea how fullfilling and uplifting it would be to hear him in this setting. I am so very grateful for this, it was amazing! He had grown up and graduated from the local high school here in 1961, so the stories he told of his adventures all took place around here and when he would talk about going down by the lake.... the kids had all experienced those same places, and it seemed to help make it so much more powerful!
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This morning we woke up to more snow! (some cool new snow pictures would have been here) It came down pretty heavily for a few hours, leaving us with snow packed roads. But everyone was off to school and work ontime.
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So you see I have many many things to be grateful for... it was a fabulous weekend... and other than my little mishap with the deleted pictures, it was starting off to be a good productive Monday.

Lost Pictures....

Yes, he made it home!
I had a few pictures on one camera, and had 86 on the other. I was downloading pics and all excited to catch up my blog, and write all about him coming home, how good he smelled, the whirlwind day, dogsitting, the winter campout, sledding, hearing from an area 70, a great Sunday, it's snowing again, sleeping dogs, napping dogs...
I was super excited... I got the pictures down loaded... I thought... they aren't there, they aren't on the camera... where are they????? I have looked everywhere, gone back over my steps.... they are all gone.... all 86 wonderful memories!
I am sick to my stomach!!!
I am crying, sad, mad at myself (because I realize what happened and I did it)... I am dreading telling my husband when he comes home for lunch. He already thinks I am "Drama Queen Central", and I have to pull it together before he gets home. He won't be mad, just disappointed about the lost pictures... but he REALLY won't get all these emotions pouring out of me... it sends him into a spin when I cry.
I will get over it, I will survive this, but I am so sick about it... I can't even blog now.
Let me go heal my heart... I will be back to blog, without pictures... somehow (It is better to do that, than to not remember all the memories at all right?...thats what I will tell myself).

Thursday, January 3, 2008

My Teenager comes home today....

My Teenager comes home today!!

I am really excited...

This is how excited out of my mind I am today... I cleaned his bathroom!

(hmmm looking at this picture makes me think this will be my next painting project)


When he left and it didn't get done... I figured he could do it when he got home. And I haven't touched it since he left. But today, I am so excited for him to get home.... plus I figured it would count as some activity since I didn't get on the treadmill yesterday.

I am also nervous for him to come home. I soooo wanted him to go when he left. But the very second he walked away to get on the plane I missed him. I caught a short glimpse of SuperNanny last night and there were two teenage girls that were not treated with much respect from their parents... and I saw so many of my own mistakes in them. I don't think I am a good listener with my own teenager. But with anyone else, I think I am a great listener. Some days when he goes to school I think in my mind if I got a call he disappeared, would I even remember what he wore to school that day. I have a huge fear that I don't pay very close attention, I tune him out allot!

So I am nervous, to make sure I am abandoning some of those things I really don't like about myself and how I co-exist with my teenager. And I am excited to apply some of the things that I think will help him know how much I love him, without smothering him, or getting in his space too much. (apparently teenagers don't like that, and it drives them away... can't imagine... I was never like that... he he he)

Plus, I just really missed him, our house was super quiet (minus the new puppy learning to bark) and I can't wait to have him under foot again!!

I really love this kid!!

And if you happen to read this 2J's... I didn't clean the floor around the toilet, or your bedroom. Forget it... you will need something to do when you get home, right? :)

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

2007 Year in Review

I really liked this blog post from Lelly summarizing the year.. and thought I would take some time to think about my year in some of the same ways.
A big part of following up on goals is to evaluate them as you go and when they are completed. So here is my big attempt to actually look back (I don't like too much reflection, it makes me cry) and see how things looked so I can make improvements as I get into 2008!
1. What did you do in 2007 that you’d never done before? Started Blogging
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Can't even remember them, except the usual lose 20lbs.... Yes, but I don't like to call them resolutions (it jinks' them)
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? My bff Brenda, Carson ~ he is a little miracle, oh and duh... my sil Ruthie had little Riley Michael
4. Did anyone close to you die? no
5. What countries did you visit? stayed home in the USA
6. What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007? creativity
7. What dates from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? Sept 5th (2J's Eagle court of honor, mom's birthday, and my baptism anniversary)
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? continued my walking routine
9. What was your biggest failure? didn't lose the weight, stopped my piano lessons at summer and never took them back up again
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? too many cold sores, broke off my front tooth
11. What was the best thing you bought? a new tooth
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? 2J's (grades, Eagle Scout, driving)
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? Celebrities are dumb
14. Where did most of your money go? Mortgage
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? 5k Women's Walk
16. What song will always remind you of 2007? Scooby Doo (my ringtone)
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? 
b) thinner or fatter? 
c) richer or poorer? Happier, the same, the same
18. What do you wish you’d done more of? laughed, crafts
19. What do you wish you’d done less of? grumbled
20. Did you fall in love in 2007? Everyday
21. What was your favorite TV program? Biggest Loser
22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? no one
23. What was the best book you read? Running with Angels
24. What was your greatest musical discovery? Slow down to listen to my Strong Silent Mysterious Man play his guitar, I forget to stop and listen sometimes, but it totally makes me happy.
25. What did you want and get? a puppy
26. What did you want and not get? skinny, ability to play the piano
27. What was your favorite film of this year? National Treasure
28. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? 42-Joe's Crab Shack
29. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? Payoff more debt
30. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2007? Sad, jeans and sweatshirts/tshirts aren't really a style are they?
31. What kept you sane? Faith, blogging, phone calls with my Sis
That wasn't as hard as I thought, but I definitely have room for improvement for 2008!! No time like the present to get started huh!

The Last Day off work...

We spent our last day off of work at home, playing with the dogs, watching movies, and being lazy. It was nice to relax, hard at times with all the work I knew awaited me this morning with year end. But I tried really hard not to work while my Man was home, and just spend the time with him.


It was a nice vacation, and we were really good not to spend any money. We were able to stay home and enjoy what we already have, which falls right into a goal we set a few months ago to stick close to the budget.

Our New Years Resolutions are to keep working toward the goals we had in place.


I made this Key Lime Pie'ish recipe... (it's not really key lime pie, but it's a really yummy healthier substitute)
1/4c boiling water
1 pkg sugar free lime jello (4svg size)
2 key lime yogurt
8oz fat free cool whip
1 reduced fat ready crust
Whisk boiling water and jello until dissolved.Whisk yogurt into jello mixture Fold in cool whip and mix well.Spoon into crust and cover. Refrigerate at least 4hrs

I have my own personal New Years Resolution (which I rarely make or keep, outside of the regular lose 20lbs). And a family version of a Biggest Loser challenge... which I have committed to, and may share more about later, but for now, I am still just trying to eat healthier and drink lots of water everyday.
Last night I watched the first episode of the new season of the Biggest Loser ~ couples, how inspiring! I even walked on the treadmill during the commercials!
I love this show! Bob Harper is my favorite trainer, I love his style, he motivates me.
The show is so much more than about losing weight, although they always have some amazing transformations, the real transforming is in attitudes, goal setting, determination and self confidence! I love it!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

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